I have no idea, but i am crazy, literally. why do i even care of writing in a diary when i already have a blog to type in. yes, for my boyf, i will do it. something to look forward too. everything that i felt for the past one month and the upcoming 4 months more to go, i'll pen down my thoughts on whatever i have felt for him over these 2 years being together. i realize, being away from that person you love, it makes you realize how much shit you've been with that person you're willing to spend your life with, and you decipher through all the hard times you had with him, all the times you've done wrong towards him and every little thing that didn't matter to you, starts to make a big part of your life matter so much.
now i realize, everything. every ounce of things, with my naked eyes, i couldn't see. but when i am away from him, i could feel with this beating heart. a month has passed, and yet i'm counting down till he'll be back. 5 months is much harder to endure than i thought it would be easy. it is fast, but, it is suffocating. have you ever wondered, being away from that one person you love so much, knowing that he makes up the most part of your life and it won't be anyone else but just him.
i think my blog is congested with posts for him. just want him to know or maybe when he gets back, i wanna show him all the things i've posted to him. telling him all the things that i, in the past, could not express it out.
Saifulridzuan, you have no idea how much you mean to me.
