[it's like i'm waiting for the next winter to come and sit with you again]
i miss you, hell i really miss you. i'm missing you like i never do. i didn't manage to say a sweet goodbye. but yet, you told me not to worry and that you'll always remember me. how could i even not blame myself for this? i didn't slept well last night, tossing and turning as if i'm expecting a disaster, when i was just wanting that late night calls we always have. though you didn't call at the usual time, you called earlier. but why Mr. D? why earlier and made me cry so badly, and that you knew that i didn't want you to hear me sobbing on the phone, yet you teased me, trying to make me feel better. i couldn't meet you earlier, so i'm tremendously sorry.
and then this morning, you called. talking with me for about an hour, before you actually left. you just don't know how much i've missed you though it's been a few hours. i can't think properly, yet i'm having you on my mind. i just suck at telling you i love you and i like you so much, but thanks for knowing that.
i really want you to know, i miss you pouting your lips, i miss you and your babylike fingers, i miss you and your dumb psp, i miss you and your stupid mat rep cap[though you're not], i miss you and that horrible yet adorable laughter, i miss you showing off your super white teeth, i miss you and your deep shouting voice, i miss you and your stupid kembang nose, i miss you when you start to merengek, i miss you when you start giving me bear hugs, i miss you when you always make me feel like i'm perfect for you, i miss you when you wipe my tears, i miss you when you just start to tease me everytime i start to cry, i miss you giving me those kisses at my cheeks, i miss you telling me how much you wanted me to hug you when you're tired, i miss you when you asked me out and always end up with a surprise, i miss you nagging at me to stop drinking coke 24/7, i miss you, almost everything about you. yet i was too late to even say all this. you always asked me whether i like you, but i always play a fool, never truthful to you.
gosh! why am i regretting it? you tol me not to regret it, but now i am. i am Mr.D! i'm starting to regret it.
his last message : " Hey dear(: gawwwd!i don't know how much i'm missing you right now.it's like a miracle that we've met a few months, and now i'm going for NS. ahahahaha:D anywoos, as long as i'm out of camp, you must fetch me hooowwwwrrrr.i didn't want you to send me off, cos i know,you'll be crying and crying and i will start teasing and teasing and won't let you go and i won't go for my NS.ahahahaha:D anywoos, must takecare of yourself, think of me always, and don't find another guy until i come back.you know i'm the only one guy that fulfills your korean guy list.ahahahah:D bythewoos, i miss you so much, i don't know how many times i've said this, and i feel liek crying now.dear, always remember that song that i've written and when your down, think of me. when you need someone, hug your pillow like you're huggin' me. i'll miss you too. i'll try to sms you, if i'm out of camp.baby, wait for me okay?? wait, i'll be back and not leaving all the time. but if you can't, and your heart cherish somewhere else, then i can't hold it. loe holds no boundaries. for now, i'm holding on to you. iloveyouxxx,woaini,saranghaeyouuxx. XP"
i replied, " love holds no boundaries. i'll fetch you, if i can. for now, i'm waiting for you. only you. i won't resist from it. you're my pillar of strength, for now. those months since i met you, i cherished them. from the fights, to the laughters to almost everything. i'll miss you. i'm missing you now like i never did miss you. hugs & kisses. be a strong guy once you come back. i love you too much[:"
