i could only have you in my fantasy .
nonetheless , i'm not hoping for more .
indeed i'm trying and have been forgetting you .
yet it's so impossible . impossible 'cause i'm head over heels for you .
why am i feeling this once more ? it's so stupid to just admire that someone
which you know he won't be yours or will NEVER be yours . boy , you deserve a better girl than me .
i'm thinking of a way to show my mum that , NO , i'm not what she think i am .
for once , hear me out will ya !
i've had it with your unfair love , i've put up with your bitching .
i've put up with acting . so for once , let me explain .
do you know how much it hurts when you won't ever EVER let me explain ?
i know life is never fair , it has never been .
but what is it in my brother that you love so much
that you wouldn't even dare and scold him on things which he has done
which is so painful to your eyes and you just nagged about it behind his back .
fine ! if you think i'm a girl , hello ! shut up and wake up .
this is a new arena .
a girl can do whatever a guy can do . fair enough ?
i feel like i'm useless to you .
i don't feel that i'm even your daughter .
you always did treat me like an outsider .
do you know how it hurts me when my friends who are having problems ,
or should i say with a BAD BACKGROUND can communicate with their mum and joke
around like they're besties ! but you and me ? ! mum , you always am showing your bitch side !
and for goodness sake i know i'm not suppose to compare with my own siblings .
but you made me do it !
he gets the luxuries , he gets the love , he gets the care , he gets the happiness he gets whatever you bitch gave him !
and me ? ! what about me ?
was i given the luxury ? ! was i being pampered like him ? ! was i being cared like him ? !
was i being loved by him ? !
NO NO NO !
even my brother sees it !
busterrrrrrooooooo !
there's more aites to talk about you mum .
seriously there's just sssssooooooooo much that you bitch don't even notice .
i'll continue this post tomorrow .
this is unbearable .
'cause it makes me wanna cry .
but mum , i won't hurt your feelings again .
but i'll be like what i am to you now .
you want me to be an outsider , that's fine with me .
i'm glad to say that i'm not even your blood .
'cause you don't even treat me like one .
so , i won't back off , but you will !
