HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAEEMAH (: so yeah , my best pal here , who sits in class beside me , who i always made her laugh everytime in class , turns 15 today ! she's old , she's old ! i'm still young , young , young ! haha . why am i young ? 'cause , my birthday will be like 10 months away . i guess ?
heh . november la babe my birthday (:
so , after school , me an Aisha treat Naeemah to Coffee Bean . it was suppose to be Starbucks , but , it was full house . besides , Aisha had to meet a friend . HAHA !
i guess i was being so sutpid to have a relationship with you .
i'm regretting , totally regretting everything . why won't you ever understand every step i took ?
i've already treated you only as a friend , but why won't you listen .
why won't you just let me go ? why can you hairul ?
i'm tired of you alr . really am tired . and about what you did to me , it hurts my body and not only my emotions .
yet i'm falling in love with a guy who , i doubt will be mine .
no , he never is .
he can have a better girl than me .
he doesn't know i'm in love with him .
and i wouln't even dream of telling him .
i don't dare , 'cause i know he won't feel the same thing .
it's just me feeling all this . yeah , he's the same age as my brother .
my goodness , i'm in love with him , without him knowing .
and if he ever read my blog , i don't think he will know .
i just got to know him , and then , i'm falling in love with him .
he can be my brother , he can be my friend .
but , no , he'll never be my soulmate .
this guy , is my dream guy .
he'll just appear in my mind when i'm sad , when i can't think of something else , he'll just be
my fairytale character .
ohh ! i hate this feeling coming again .
it happens once , twice , and now the third time ? !
i wann get rid of this feeling , but how ?
i'm just too young , and he's way older than me , though by 4 years .
that night , when you didn't turn your direction away from me ,
i felt there's a connection between us .
i don't know . or is it just me overreacting ?
i guess i am , or i already am .
gosh ! get over him Nur Khalidah Zainal !
this feeling can never be true .
it's just me and not you .
you can have a better girl way much more true with her feelings than me .
trust me , you will .
