first and foremost , this post has four . parts .
AISYAH , AKIDKECHIQ , HAIRUL & SRIMUNIRA .
okay , let's start with the first one aites .
to aisyahSASUSU .
babe , i'm really sorry 'cause of the outing .
i don't know how may i redeem myself .
is sorry good enough . ?
i don't think so .
because of me , the outing cancelled . i read your tagboard .
i don't know la .
maybe because of me , maybe not .
i don't want t jump into conclusion .
but seriously , my religious teacher's mum , have not yet got the schedule
and there's no news currently .
babe , i am realy really sorry .
how may i forgive myself . ?
to akid kechiq .
currently , in my mind , the thought of you back at home safely .
and i really have the instinct that you're finally back at home .
alhamdullilah .
i've always thought that after we broke up ,
maybe we could still be friends .
but , the relationship just got worst . *silence*
have you like delete me away from MSN . ?
or block me . ?
i don't even know . but , why can't we be friends . ?
i know , you've return t her .
well , maybe she doesn't wants you t contact with any girls .
idk .
but , can't we even have a small chat .
like how we used t do when we first know each other .
seriously , can a miracle happen t us . ?
i'm hoping you would come back .
bu , no . it will never happen .
let me tell you something , when i'm sad and crying very badly ,
i kept on mumbling your name .
and that keeps me cry even more .
all i can do is just pray for your safety and that you'll be with her for eternity .
i'll pray that you'll be happier with her than you're with me .
i've never forgotten every of your words .
he said , " Aku nak satu benda dari mak bapak kau . "
i said , " apa . ?"
he said , " ENGKAU . "
those were the memories . forgettable . ? i don't know .
to daddy , hairul .
now what is just so wrong .
i just can't figure you out nowadays .
yeah daddy , i know you're busy with work , and i don't blame you for that .
yes , i cried .
yes , i was bored .
yes , i'm not being pampered that much .
but in all that , i managed t wait for you till you message me ,
with full of patience . we've alr settle it right . ?
now what makes you or what the heck were you thinking . ? you quit your job . !
and it's all because of me .
and yeah , i made you feel how i felt the past few days .
goodness gracious , you went so mad ,
and you said this one particular word which hurts me like a thunder .
when we're talking on the phone just now , tell me ,
am i friend t you . ? you're talking as if i'm a friend of yours .
i can't bear it .
i cried so badly . i just slammed down the phone .
i think you heard my sobbing .
you knew you did .
and , i give you a message , and you replied ,
" Baby , i sepatut mintak maaf... I tak patut pkir sendiri je ...
I mesti faham u ... i bertanggungjawab atas u ... I kene dgr ckp u ...
Cume i ni suke pressure ... Baby , maafkan dady ...
Dady maafkan u ... I yng salah bukan u ...
I patut jaga u ... I patut lynkn u ... I patut dgr kate u .....baby .
dady dun mean it to you .... Dady just wan to understand ....
dady needs you more than others do ....
Dady still love you no matter we argue ... I'll always forgive you no matter what you did
wrong .... I love you forever ... Forgive me khalidah .... "
dy . i will forgive you also .
but you know i have that fear of what happened in the past .
i am totaly scared .
will it happen again in the future . ?
idk .
to SriMunira .
babe . i love you so much aites .
thanks for being there for me .
even though it's like still so late at night , you're still there for me .
thanks babe .
i owe you .
and yeah , you've heard me cry .
i'll be okay aites bby . ?
anyway , maybe you should give HIM a message or something on his birthday .
be true t your heart .
i'll support you till the end .
anyway babe , i miss umi .
both of you are my lending ears and life saviour . !
love you both (:
UMIAMMIRAH IS BEING MISS BADLY . !
i guess that's all .
i've let my heart out , quarterly , but not fully .
takecares y'all .
Allah bless you .
nights .
