Elle Khalidah Anico Routh

it has been three frigging days since i last post .

well yeah , i'm somehow lazy t post .

and yeah , managed t edit my pics on top and also , change my blog skin .

AT LAST , i've found something that is gentle t the eye .

hahas .

i guess so .

so , well , let me say this , i'm ubeeeeeeerrrrr bored .

pathetically , i am very bored .

and at this hour of time , i'm still not alseep .

GOSH .

i'm so gonna be an owl sooner or later .

& i don't freaking care aites .

well , i'm pretty much in a fight with HAIRUL .

here's what i'm gonna say aites :

well yeah daddy . i'm sorry okay . i know i'm always mad at you .

and forever will .

hell yeah . you're busy with your work , and here i am stuck and sitting like

a dumbass kid , waiting and owndering whther you'll contact me .

i know you've creid like so many times .

but , how about me . ?

i'm fighting t keep this relationship last longer .

and i'm trying my best .

i didn't want and never intend t let you down .

but everytime i fight with you .

i kept thinking about the past .

about what happened .

about what you did t me .

i have forgiven you , but i've not fully forgotten about it .

i'm still thinking about it .

i know i was wrong that time , but i'm just so scared .

i'm scared t be hurt by you again .

it's so hurtful okayy .

for once , listen t this beating heart .

let me tell you how i feel .

i know you need me and i need you too .

but , please , hear me .

let me say out and confess everything t you .

daddy , i'm so afraid when you're angry at me .

i know how are you like .

i am afraid .

so please , for this once , hear me out will ya . ?

iloveyou hairul .

&iamsorry .