about a boy . who left without saying a proper goodbye .
and left , with such an unacceptable reason .
i didn't want it t happen this way , but he wanted t end the relationship either way .
your purpose of typing out that letter , was t tell me not t wait and suffer with you .
when you yourself said this , ' Susah senang kita bersama . '
i felt like enough is enough .
i have t let it out , somewhere or somehow .
'cause i felt that the hatred and anger is growing .
want t know who i'm referring t . ?
AKID aka Abdul Wahid Abdul Rashid .
i'm typing this out is also because of adeq , syafiqah .
actually i didn't want t type it out .
but she reminded me t let my heart out , when she said , 'care to share ?'
here i am sharing .
should i type it out in malay , or english . ?
ohh whatever okayys .
it didn't matter t me how long i've got t wait for you .
but , what the hell . ? !
this decision you made that totally change every of my atmosphere .
i hold onto your promises and your words .
'cause i know in the first place , you're the one i trust .
and i know , you're not gonna leave me even if things just get SO worst .
but , CHEATER .
you've never believed in the perspective of , ' Words are CHEAP . '
but idiot , you just did .
you made me think that there is a difference in a handful of guys .
not all guys are the same .
NO . !
you're just the same type as them .
how could i ever be so stupid and swallow you're sweet words and believe whatever you said .
even though it's been days that has gone by , still i have not overcome this issue .
tell me how could i ever overcome this issue . ?
i seriously have not overcome it .
tell me why i can't overcome it .
okay .
here are the points :
- your words are CHEAP .
- you are just the same as the other guys .
- i was so stupid t trust you fully .
- why in the name of hell didi i ever LOVE you . ? !
you messed with my life .
letting and making me live with you haunting my dreams .
every thing that i've done always reminds me of you .
words . ?
does words that i've heard coming out from your mouth ,
i've heard it so many times when you left me .
it's so unfair .
why am i bearing all this . ?
i can't bear it anymore okayy .
i go on my life with you that time , it's cause i'm sick with my current bf now .
but i began t realise , it's you i'm suppose t leave earlier on in my life .
i shouldn't have trusted you .
i shouldn't have fall in love with you .
i shouldn't have believe in you .
i shouldn't have known you .
and above all ,
I SHOULDN'T HAVE GAVE HOPE FOR YOU .
if i ever , ever see your face outside again .
jgn pkir ku tk branie uhr ekh .
pkir kao lakie , ku takot .
sorie uhr mat .
nie tyme , smuerh org mao rilek .
tpie , dgn kao , aku dahr tkdehr rilek lgie .
ku nmpk mukerh kao pat luar , tu mukerh ku akan pecah kann .
nie bkn sayang peh psl lgie .
; i trusted and believed in you . 'cause you thought me about patience and many more
thngs in life that i've left out .
but in the end , you cheated me .
HAIRUL . ! bby miss youu (:
*next post , i'll post the letter our MR AKD type out .
