hello (:
13 days have passed , and i'm beginning to blog again .
well , so many things have ogne by during these 13 days .
should i explain , or should i not ?
i don't know .
so , let me guess .
among these 13 days , there was only one day that i fought with hairul .
but , other than that , the bond between us have grow stronger .
and i've not fully and finally found who i am .
but , i've begun to understand what life means to me .
life is just not about you and only you . it doesn't also means about joy and happiness all the time .
it's not about standing tall all the way , 'cause one day you will fall .
you share this life with someone else also .
and i mean that someone else is the people around you .
life is also not about being happy , but it has its UPs and DOWNs .
life is not about being and standing tall all the time , but you must know who you are and whre you've come from .
i seriously don't know why i'm saying this , but , maybe , yeah i've learnt my lesson .
maybe not .
it's just hard to understand .
i've began to appreciate the things and people around me .
and yeah , if people cannot accept what i'm doing .
sighs .
i seriously don't know what part of life are you finding .
and today's post is about amira .
it's not that you're a fucking idiot .
it's not that you don't trust people .
it's not you that i know .
you want to say that i don't know you well .
think again .
it's not that i've special powers .
it's not that i'm strong .
but , thru people's expression , attitude , behaviour and character .
i don't have to get to know someone in days , weeks , months or even years to know them .
i know whether they have problem .
and you mira , it's not that people want you to change everytime .
it's you who needs to change also .
don't listen to what other people say .
you are who you are .
loving yourself is the first main important thing .
then , from there you will learn to understand people and trust people .
i'll always be there for you even though you will not be there for me .
i trust you .
i love you .
i miss you .
i need you .
get the point mira ?
and btw , forgive me for the sins i have done .
i know i've done a lot and a lot of wrongdoings to you .
but in the end , i cherish the time we've always shared .
and maybe , one day , when i'm totally free , i'll spend the whole day with you .
and mira , you are my true friend i've always trusted .
it's okay to cry now about your problem , but one day , you'll just be free .
and that's where you'll realise , it's okay to keep holding on and be strong , but in the end , you will still survive .
i'll always be there for you , Nur Amira .
and and , if alicia keys lyrics , 'teenage love affair' starts with , "Can't wait to get home . ."
i will sya mine will start with , i can't wait to get to school to mee hairul .
hahas :D
it's just that i miss him so much .
like GODDAMN it .
he's prepaid has no more value .
and no one is there to top it up for him .
i'm not working , so , where do i have to find money .
and btw , i don't know if he's gona ask his mum .
but , i doubt his mum will give the money to him .
and hairul , i'll also be there for you anytime you need me .
i know you are having your own problems .
slowly okay sayang .
one day , your parents will be happy with you .
and to the people who hate me , and always gossip about me .
i don't care what you're gonna say .
'cause you're talking shit okay .
there' nothing wrong with me .
it's something wrong with you .
and i've never found a love like this .
ily hairul okay .
