30th August 2008 , 11:11pm .
here i am thinking of you , and you thinking of me .
seriously , i didn't knew we've gone this far .
right now , i'm thinking of the memories we've shared even before we went to loving each other .
we just started out as strangers .
me and you , not knowing each other so well .
we would just say hello , and the conver ends there .
but , it when on with a little more of touching .
you would ask me about my problem , and give me advices , and i'll always be helping you by giving advices also .
but it just doesn't seems to end there .
the was just this one day , when i fell sick .
some things just begin to show itself .
you threaten me by asking not to talk t you again if i didn't go for a checkup .
i didn't know why i didn't want t lose you as a friend .
but it seem i just wanted to know you even better .
the friendship just goes on .
and i got to know you even more .
and i got to know all this while , it's love and care that you seek for .
but not just just a normal love and care .
but an ordinary love and care , from that special someone you've been searching for .
i didn't get to know about it at first , but then , i just got the feeling of it .
you were always there when i needed you .
you were always there when i want you .
you were always there when i find you .
so , what more else do i need from you . ?
let me say it .
i just need your love .
nothing more than anything , but just one word , your love .
you shield me from any obstacles .
like the one that HAIRUL did to me .
i didn't know HE was going to slapped me , i thought you never knew .
but you saw it .
i let go of HIM , 'cause i knew , i was never going to last my whole eternity with HIM .
'cause HE was just making use of me to satisfy HIS needs .
i'm not a toy i'm telling you now .
i let go of HIM 'cause i don't feel any love towards him .
but , i began to know that my heart was blooming towards you .
i don't know why , but it just did .
you're just too special for me .
but what is it about you that is so special . ?
shall i seek it . ?
i don't know .
26 August 2008 . the day i broke my ties with HAIRUL .
but the day you entered my heart .
the day was full of glory and joy .
but , it's not even a month or a year , or a decade that problems came running into our life .
is this a challenge to our love . ?
can we be patience enough . ?
i want to have you .
will you promise me that we'll overcome any obstacles that come into our life together . ?
and can you promise me that your love for me will be true . ?
i never want to hurt you .
so , let us be happy together .
wahid , i'm sorry for everything that i've done .
i'm sorry for the things that came up .
all the problems came from me .
from my family .
can you be patience enough . ?
i wrote your name in the sky , but the cloud pushed it away .
i wrote your name on the sand , and the waves washed it away .
i wrote your name in my heart , 'and forever it shall stay .
and to HAIRUL .
i didn't want to love you anymore .
'cause the love i had for you at that point of time , was fading .
but i'm not a doll to play with .
aku bukan seorang wanita yang ingin memuaskan hawa nafsu mu .
tak ingin sekali untuk kembali padamu .
pergila engkau mencari bidadari yang lain .
yang ingin sungguh memuaskan nafsu tinggi mu .
jangan sesekali mengharap aku akan memutarkan masa mu yang dahulu .
