i dreamt of something last night. or should i say this morning. i suddenly woke up from my dream and was sweating profusely. i can barely describe what my dream was about. i was crying so badly that i cried out to God and say that, please let him go away from my mind. i don't want to be just stuck in time. i don't want myself to be trapped anymore. then, i went back to sleep, and woke up at 11am and called Z what happened. and Z didn't say anything at all, he just kept quiet.
Z, i know you're gonna be reading this, but i'm tremendously sorry. i know that you've managed to change me bit by bit, but i'm trying and trying to forget him. i don't know why, but he just kept on reappearing in my mind. i know i was initially dumbed to actually fall back for him the second time, but i couldn't say more. i'm really sorry. pick up my calls please?
i just noticed something, it has often rain for the last month, or should i say it has been raining for the one month, and that it's happening also for this month, i still remember someone told me, "if it has always been a cold weather, and that you're sensitive with it, someone very important in your life is badly crying in his/her heart. and that he/she is hurt." well, i wonder who? someone important? WELL, i cannot take this cold weather anymore. i've been having flu every single night, and it's no joke. i'm tired of wasting tissues all the time. HAHAH;D well, for the fact that my nose is hurting every time i sneeze and i hate that. seriously, can the cold weather stop alr? i had enough. well, i guess this is the post for today. i wanna touch my books and do my homework.
you know i didn't mean to. you know how i still feel deep down. but why is it that you're still holding on though you know it hurts you deep down to see me struggling with what i feel. haven't you had enough of the pain? why me Z? why do you hold on?
