after this post, i'm going to be starting on my art. touching it all back up. it's time for a change girls. and we're gonna help one another. that's one thing we have got to abide with.
you probably might not realise, that it still hurts though you're with someone else now. i haven't gotten over the fact that i still love you as much as how i am hurt now. i'm gonna stop counting when is she dying or whatsoever. i find it being too cruel, but the fact is that i'm sick and tired alr. though the date which i have stated her death will still be in mine. well, let her God decides her fate in life. if she wishes to go now, then let it be. you may not know how much it hurt suckish-ly what you did to me. but, seriously, i have not yet gotten over you. though i may have love someone else, thoughts of you still are stuck in mind. well, i'm beginning to endure and try not to show it how bad it shot me, but literally, i wanna change. not for the sake of you, but for myself who seems to make my own life stuck in yours. but i finally want to say this, it's cause you've not been thru a DEEP HURT to to a soul-searching about yourself that you don't actually find yourself hurting in the first place and that you dare hurt someone else.
Z, i'm sorry for what i did just now. i promise to try and control my temper. i'm willing to change. Z, please please help me get rid of the feelings which i once had. i don't want to betray my own and your feelings. Baby baby, please. Ily.
