Elle Khalidah Anico Routh

and all i wanna do, is to just punch your face when i see you. 'cause i blame myself for telling you everything about me, taking care of your pathetic feelings all the time and for knowing you in the first place. you said you love me, but you ended up with another girl and only telling me about you liking her when you're alr in a relationship with me. you expect your bloody partner to always have to care for your damn feelings when you don't even think twice when making the decision and blame your ex-Gfs  for not having to last thru with them. well, i finally figure it out, you are a playboy. you only need a girlfriend to fulfill your passionate desire and not loving them. and yeah, i just read Fauzi Rassull's Blog. what he says is true, sex is not the important thing in a relationship. there are other things to do to make a couple closer to each other.

well, i'm posting now because i finally realised on what a terrible big mistake i have done. the decision i made really dejected me. it is definitely so impossible and so dumb of me to be in a relationship with Ahmad Danial. and now, where is he? let me give it a guess. he's now currently attached to a girl name Atyqa. well, the reason is obvious. she's the girl whom which Danial said he was still in love with. well, she told me she's left with 6months to live due to her stage 2 brain cancer. and she told me her story and everything. well, according to what i hear, i seriously don't believe it. why i don't? well, deliberately, i've heard her story and figured everything out, so i kinda don't wanna believe it at all. i feel very fallacious listening to her story. i've heard it, i think thru it logically, and asked whoever and whatever sources i knew. so, being me and just me, simply i'm just going to be baneful.
I'll wait until the next 6months are over. i wanna see your face in the obituary section of the newspaper seeing that you've died since you said that you're left with the solitary 6months of your life. if i still see and hear your name and get to know you're alive, God knows what you've said was a lie and that you're gonna get it one day. and when it's true, i'll be saying HALLELUJAH. may Jesus be with you and not Allah. Amen. so, i'm waiting patiently till your day comes. if it's not true, oh girl! you're so in trouble.

this is why, i'm called an atheist as i'm seriously an agnostic person who won't believe whatever you outsider people who-is-psychotic-in-the-head talks about your sufferings. i only believe in my family, closest Girlfriends and Bestfriends and myself. so don't come and tell me your-grandma's-asses-shit story.

so, i'll end off by saying,

YOU HAVE 6 MONTHS TO LIVE.

 I'LL BE WAITING TO SEE YOUR NAME AND FACE

IN THE OBITUARY SECTION OF THE NEWSPAPERS.

I'LL WAIT TILL YOUR END OF TIME.