Elle Khalidah Anico Routh

HELLO 2010, GOODBYE 2009

2009, a year where everything when totally wrong for me. a year full of sorrow and full of grieve.

everything in my life when totally complicated and it was a year, where it was a turning point for me.

life has been very difficult, yet i manage to go through a lot of things.

i finally realised that, after much pain and suffering, it was the time i got to know about people who are real family, real friends. 

My parents, my family, my friends. i don't know how to express my gratitude to them. but yet, they stand by me all through the year of 2009.

 last year has been a year where i when through my first turning point in life. a life-threatening experience and a sorrowful one indeed. it has been a year where many loss were discovered and that it could only be brought back years later. if only i could tell and published a book about how i went through with my life during the year of 2009, i would. but, i think it's better to keep it safe as a memory that will never be forgotten till the last breath. 

Wednesday, 30 December 2009, 03:52am, a day, date and time which i will never forget. a person i really love was brought to Earth through me sees the world for the first time.the most joyful time of my life, where he was lying on my chest and was crying and the first time he touched my face. and at that moment, i realised, that this is it. nothing in the world matters anymore. i've been strong all the way and he has made me stronger and that i won't give up on my life anymore and will no longer be breakable anymore. 

  

31 December 2009, was the last time i saw him. no one knows how it feels like to let go of something that is so precious and that you had to let go if it in just a short notice. it was the last time i saw him. i touched his cheek and he was smiling while sleeping. and all that was left in my mind till now, was how much he looks exactly like me. the nose, the cheek, the forehead, the dimple. but i know, i must be sincere with my decision. i must be strong though now it feels so empty.it won't be easy as it will forever in my memory. but i know, my parents and friends will help me go on with my life. i will never give up anymore. he will always be mine for sure. and that i hope one day we'll meet again. he's the light of my life and that he makes my life more meaningful. 



so here comes 2010, where everything will be anew. and that the past can never be the present, and that the present will determine the future. O levels is my next step and i will have to move on and work hard. 301209, will never be forgotten, as it will always remain. but this year, will be a change. it will be a new start and that everything will go on smoothly. 
 HELLO 2010, GOODBYE 2009


Muhammad Irfan, i will always love you no matter what.
as i have live for you, and that i thank God for letting you have a better life.