bie xiang xin ba, li kai ba.
and when everything seems to not go your way, we always think that life is difficult, and that we can't go on.
so i walked down the aisle thinking what has been wasted, and guess what. a lot of things.
i guess a lot has change, from mental, to physical, to emotional. thinking about what i want most for my future, seems like a good way to go.
but, don't we always hear that let the future be, but just do your best in the present? whatever, i put my hands up and just surrender.
i've not been updating much due to a lot of reasons. first and foremost, my brother always uses the computer, and i fxcking don't care. secondly, i just can't stop eating and hell, i've got to lose my weight asap. or else, i am going to be looking like a fishball. simply, 2009 has proven how egregious i have been, but nevertheless, i don't regret 'em.
Os are next year and i have only a few months to prepare myself. i don't really enjoy that term, "to prepare myself." i find it as a drag. but hey, it's what i have to face and do. it's a challenge to be and show that i have to be on top and show to those bloody bastards that it doesn't matter who you are to be great. so shut up! i don't spit and your footprints so why should you?
it's a lesson to be learn and accomplished. so for now, i'm going to be mugging again. i don't know when i will be updating.
i miss friends who can accompany me at home. i miss a lot of things. i want to be free, and most of all, different from the old me. i guess i'm in love, but it's too early don't you think? i just fell, i need to be back on the cliff and be steady.
any comments? i need company[:
