BACK FROM CAMP .
like i totally don't wanna go home .
but eventually , now i'm at home .
but but but seriously , i can stay there for how long i want .
'cause it's the frigging first time i'm surviving without even beeing distracted
or even thinking of my handphone , my blog , my computer , my teddybear , my bed .
oh gosh ! i don't even care of anything .
ermm . i don't think so .
i'm currently not getting over the toilet issue . ( sungguh tak payah tahu )
next time , i'll bring or even bring over my own toilet .
and yeah yeah , the camp made me , Elisha , Zara and Yao Hui get closer to each other .
hell yeah , we are like sticking with each other for almost every activities .
and on the last day of camp , we made a promise that we'll be bff's forever .
i love you guys !
indeed many things happen during the four days .
i think it's time i have to really let you go .
i'm really effing bored of you .
i'm admitting it now , i have to be with you 'cause i HAVE too .
it's not because i'm loving it .
but really , who could ever live with a guy who makes
the perspective , 'talk is cheap' into your life .
why does every story that comes to me about you ,
is so true ?
can there be once that all those stories be a lie ?
but hey , it's reality . i can never run away from it .
yeah . you can do anything to me from now on .
'cause i fucking hate you !
damn ! why did i ever met you in the first place HAIRULRAHAMAD .
i've given you my fullest trust , yet , i'm being un - appreciated .
i don't even wanna care now . i don't even think of caring .
i'm just too soft . i am too soft .
to mum .
isn't once enough ? shall i hurt your feelings the second time .
and if this time , you want to send me out of the house ,
DIPERSILAKAN .
i don't care .
one moment i was back from camp , the second thing was a shot of fire was on my face .
at least i don't treat the house like a hotel .
at least i went home straight . evidence ?
you can ask amira .
i didn't even took the bus or mrt , yet , with my own money i took the cab .
so , what's the deal now ?
how can i ever tell you how i feel .
it's impossible .
like you said , " i'll never be like or i am never you . "
it simply means , i'm not your child la kan ?
why can't you see and let me say it out ?
but then again , it's hopeless .
i'm on my own .
*crying*
to encik daryl .
thank you for honouring your words .
but , like i said , i don't trust your words but i believe them .
fair enough ?
i'll tell you if i have any problems or whatsoever .
i'll try and tell you .
btw , nice knowing you and yeah , do keep it a secret on what we talk that night .
(:
then again , i'm climbing the cliff which i just fell off from , on my own .
*crying*
who would ever understand .
*crying*
sorry for being too emotional .
