3 days have passed and now , i'm back home again .
could i ever trust someone else to love again . ?
is this the path that i'm going to walk on . ?
i'm wondering , still wondering .
i am flying now , yes i am .
but then , i don't want anyore guidance .
let me myself experience it . alone .
i'm just too afraid for someone to fly with me .
i've broke a lot of wings .
tell me , how many more wings do i have to break . ?
i've lost trust , believe and care long time ago .
but then , i stood up again , this time with guidance .
but yet , i've failed again .
this time , the wings that broke , are mine .
it hurt so badly that it's impossible for me to fly again .
i'm diffidence to fly again with someone .
and i don't want to fly again .
the softest hard has now become harden .
even though it has turned harden and strong , yet i still cry .
when i look up in the sky , i cried so badly that these tears won't stop .
i looked and asked myself , " Khalidah , just what went wrong ?"
and i'll cry even more .
i'm being guided . but yet i broke my own wings .
i don't want any history to happen again .
even though i'm being love now , yet i suffered .
i'm picking up things that hurt my body even more .
and that made my weak heart beats even more slower and with full of pain .
i never wanted my love ones to get hurt like me .
that is why i gave them hope and encouragement and fly high .
it didn't matter to me .
as long as their faces have a smile because of me , i'm glad .
although things hurt me , yet i don't want to show it .
your happiness is my happiness .
let me gave you hope but in return i don't want anything , just treasure it .
let there be light in someone's heart but not mine .
giving hope and never expect anything in return .
fly and fly . fly away and fly high .
spread your wings wide .
& don't be afraid of what you are . but then don't forget the past .
because the past is the one that makes the present .
and the present shall be for the future .
