don't leave me here out alone , i'm the one who you promise you would love .
so boredom seems t strike again .
like wth laa .
and guess what , i've noticed HIS pm and name on MSN has changes .
not talking t me boy . ?
go ahead okayy .
had sleepless nights .
had unpeaceful thoughts .
and all is because i'm thinking about you .
now , i can't even talk t you .
i rarely , or should i say , NEVER have seen you online again .
idk what's happening t you , & this is what you tell , 'Don't worry about me.'
it's not a frigging joke okayy .
it's hurting t see i have t suffer with the person who i don't love the most ,
& i can't get the oppurtunity t see you and tell you how mush i need you .
you know i'm waiting for you .
i really am .
i don't know if this are lies t you .
but whatever .
what you're see - ing about me and the other HIM and whatsoever cherish
times i'm having with HIM , is never equals t you .
believe whatever lies you're hearing from other people and don't hear my heart out okayys . ?
if things are going on like this , FIND .
you won't talk , and i will keep mum .
no point of talking , when every conversation ends with a quarrel .
i'll wait .
wait till you open your blardy mouth , or should i say get your hands on the keyboard ,
and type out whatsoever farking shit you wanna say .
if that makes you happy , SO BE IT . !
i've like not in the right mood actually .
no mood t do anything .
mum just spoils everything .
apparently , this was what happened a few minutes ago .
i was on the frigging phone just now .
with , ayu , qistina and this guy daniel .
so we chat .
and , goddammit .
my mum nags and nags and nags like and old frag .
nags and says that i'm 24/7 on the frigging phone .
EH HELLO . !
i'm not otp when i'm sleeping .
and OBVIOUSLY , i don't dream about phones will i'm sleeping .
is half an hour a loooooonnnnnnngggggggg conversation . ?
i said , ' NO.'
damn it seriously .
my mother spends countless of hours on the phone talking t HER mother .
should i define it more clearer , not talking , but , G O S S I P I NG .
is that freaking fair . ?
arghh . !
get me out of this enless - chapters - of - never - ending - quarelling - story .
i'm like turning and being a good angel here , and there you guys go off blasting .
yeah peeps .
i'm alr on my way down .
and i'm not holding onto anyone .
no one okayys .
waited for that one guy , but , hey , can i know where are your whereabouts . ?
but all i could remember in the last conversation was , ' Don't worry about me .'
i'm not a FREAK okayys . !
please please . !
i'm tripping over myself .
going nowhere .
i'm suffocated .
and i wanna take a dive in the ocean .
and i want float on it , and i wanna forget everything that ever hurts me . ?
TOMORROW TOMORROW((:
Nur Khalidah is a good girl alr okay (:
taking report book tomorrow w/o my mother .
how happy can my life be .
but that is not even covering quarter of my happiness .
and before i take my leave .
HAFIZ OHH HAFIZ .
fyi , imma very daring girl .
didn't you dare me not t call you tonight . ?
i'm doing it now .
hehs .
no stress , no stress , no stress .
okay okay .
i'll take my leave .
buhh - byyyyyeeeeeee . . .
