and seriously , i just don't know where else t vent out my anger .
should i tell someone , type it out in my blog and let the whole world know .
or keep it cloistered .
i just don't have any idea .
i've not been myself lately .
it's as if someone else is taking control of my life .
you know , like a VOODOO DOLL .
but , i'm not telling this t anyone .
but guess what , the whole world is gonna know about it .
so , HELL YEAH .
i'm seriously fucked up with my BROTHER .
Muhammad Zulhilmi bin Zainal .
okaay , fine you fucker .
mum expropriate my hp , and YOU will only give it back t me ,
if i've fully changed .
and when i use the house phone every single night , just t contact this one person .
KECOHH SEMCM EKH KAO ABGG . !
how am i suppose t contact that someone when my MSN is having this bovine problem .
and the internet connection , PREDOMINANTLY gets disconnected .
aren't you irritated . ? !
i grimly think that you're better off being a GAY , then being a MAN .
wanna know why . ?
WORLD . ! i'm telling you this personal stuff as t embarass my so - called - caring brother .
BROTHER .
you watch GAY PORN videos .
i'm not surprised if you're only allure t someone your own sex .
i know i'm very blasphemous right now .
SO WHAT . ?
i have no where else t vent my anger .
need i punch the wall . ?
need i slashed my wrist . ?
need i overdose like i used too . ?
need i destroy my life . ?
FUCK . !
i don't need t do it anymore okaays . !
i've destroyed my life alr .
and i don't give a damn fucking mama care .
i don't wanna care anymore reasons or whatsoever blabbering .
*blaah , blaah*
ass okay .
and i would now like t confabulate about what ever happen today okaays .
TODAY((:
well , got back not most of my result .
but hey , want t know what's the good news . ?
IMPROVEMENT IN MATHS . !
passed maths laa kan .
ms kaur was proud and happy for me((:
malay , flagrantly , i always pass .
DNT , kanasai :D
homeEC , not sure yet the total marks .
science , IMPROVEMENT((:
geography , PASSED((:
art , unknown yet .
i want t take COMBINED SCIENCE next year :D
but ignoramus laa .
I WANT BIOLOGY , NOT PHYSICS . !
fyi , i've never outshine in physics okaay .
yeah , i may understand electricity , and blah - blih - bluh .
but , remembering all the formulae , die seyh .
please , please Mr Adolphus Tan my very kind - hearted principal((:
find for us a BIOLOGY teacher .
i'm begging you .
i want BIO .
and GOD , please save me from dropping t another stream .
i want t be in express always .
i know i've nto been doing well , but but , please , i want EXPRESS STREAM .
not another or whatsoever stream .
had a great time with Amira; Gegurl after school .
asked me t accompany her t take application form at Mcd's .
dendeng pehh bdak . ! nak application form pon aku yg kenek tnyerhkn .
HAHAS :D
but , what can i say , sisters for life .
sayang pehh psl .
HAHAS :D
so and so , she fill in the form .
then walk out of Mcd's then went t CoffeeBean by drink .
oits . ! sempat kacao kakaq yg tgh kerjerh dokk .
then , we became high , don't know why .
'cause i can't find any appropriate reason :D
then laugh our butts out .
then , she send me at interchange .
sweet kan . ?
sayang sister aku siots .
sejiwerh sematie .
HAHAS :D
and yeah , that's about it .
fun , sad , anger .
yeah , i'm feeling it all .
and didn't contact boyfriend today .
*sighs*
what more am i suppose t say .
i feel like giving up .
look around , don't you feel something missing . ?
i'm the one you promised you would love .
but you got ahead so far away .
while i'm holding on , please turn around .
i see you but i don't feel you .
can't get your attention to save my love .
look back and see me now .
don't let me down , please turn around .
if you only see the tears that i'm crying on my pillow .
that doesn't compare to what you're doing to my soul .
don't you even know that i'm in need of love .
i'm calling you but you don't seem to hear a thing .
i'm losing you now .
turn around , just turn around .
turn around , look around baby .
look around , baby , look around , baby .
i need you to save my love .
don't let me down .
just turn around .
