well , days goes on and off normally .
if there's a special day , it stills goes on normally .
no difference .
so , yeah , today was the third month anniversary .
like i said in the second line .
it's just goes off normally .
a disruption happen .
well , he went attitude , && when he's alright , i'm the one going attitude .
pathetic kan ??
like so stupid la me .
i'm so like going back to my old character .
oh yeah , actually i'm posting again 'cause idk why , i'm falling in love again with someone else .
a person who i told my friends that i've forgotten him , but never will .
do you know how much it hurts when you didn't share with me your secrets ??
i was so hurt when you didn't want to share with me .
i was so hurt seeing you happy smiling with some other girls .
i can't tell you how much i love you .
i can't tell you how much i need you .
i can't tell you how much i want you .
i can't tell you how much you mean to me .
'cause you've treated me into someone just a part of your life .
but what can i do ??
i'm just keeping the feelings i have for you now , just in my heart .
you never saw the hurt in my eyes .
you never saw the pain i'm feeling .
'cause i've remebered your words .
you said , 'i'll never EVER marry you.'
a thunderous lightning struck my heart badly , that it made me want to die .
i couldn't stand the pain .
it was unbearable .
if only i could be given a chane to turn back the time and change what you say ,
it'll make my heart a bit lighter , or maybe , feeling a bit better .
i've always wanted to know and feel your love , but all i could do was just
watch you from a distance and just be happy with what you do .
'cause i know , i ain't worth for you .
i'm so not your type of girl you've always wanted .
i'm WAY different from your choice .
TOO different .
there are too many differences in this world in every girl .
if only you could change your mind , and change your mind concept .
i want to be a part of you .
but what can i say , i never will .
i can't even crave for your love .
so it shall be written , so it shall be done .
i started that feeling grow , && i'll try my best to STOP it .
i'll try .
&& i won't give up hope .
i will have faith .
