i'm alone at home now ...
boring though ...
just now she talk to me ...
but who gave a damn hell bout it ...
i don't ...
so what if her health is worsening ...?
mine is worse than ever ...
anyway,arfah is like head over heels over her guy ...
i say arfah,love him to the fullest of your heart ...
don't regret okay ...?
anyway,my friends are trying to stop me from slashing my wrist again ...
i can't okayy ...
when i'm alone and depressed,i always do it ...
no matter what ...
i thought of overdosing panadol again ...
but couldnt 'cause mum is checking my room everyday ...
so didnt have the chance ...
anyway,met fizrin today ...
and he is the person who makes my mood goes all wrong without any reason ...
i saw his face and everything went wrong ...
and,aisyah told him that i admire him ...
and ask if he wants to be friends with me ...
and he say it in front of me that he don't want ...
so what ...?!
i also don't want ...
who want that son of a bitch to be my friend ...
fate fell worst this time ...
i don't know why ...
suddenly in me it all goes wrong ...
and i dont know why ...
there's no answer for this question ...
the answer will always be in my heart ...
my heart thatis now so covered by all the darkness ...
and unhappiness of life ...
what's the point of being loved again ....
haiz.
MOCHA;
