Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Not have been blogging for quite sometime.My life is full of sorrow.I just can't believe what happened yesterday that i'm starting and trying to forget Fizrin.I don't know why i feel hatred in him now.I just don't understand why.My friend aisyah said that my life will be miserable if i start to forget him.Well,it actually is starting to happen now.My head now is full of problem now.So,to stop me from getting stress up and let all the thinking affecting me,i slash my hand and overdose panadol. I just don't know why.It felt like i cannot stop all this already.If i were to stop,i have to let somebody stop it from me.That's all.But for now,i really cannot stop.It has been addicted to me.I just wanna love from Family,siblings,friends and also a soul lover.Just when will i get a lover for now.I'm just wanting a soul that could keep me warm and just stop me from doing all this crazy stuff.I just couldn't stop from now.Just couldn't do it.I just couldn't.I'm just so stress out.If only anyone could know my problem and help me,i will just love that person forever.Even my family doesn't know i slash my hand and overdosing.They just don't care about me now.So i have to strive for myself.I just need a soul with me and just care for me for the moment.But it's hard to find the only one.I just couldn't bare to hold this sufferness.Well,it seem that i really have to strive on my own.What will happen to my life now?When will this stop?What should i do?
